WOW I can't believe it's been 9 months since I had been sitting in the chemo chair getting pumped with drugs. Since then I am been busy living, I want back to work full time, still as busy as can be at church, and in 2 weeks I will be traveling to Denver for Cancer Con (put on by StupidCancer.org).
I would be lying if I said it's all been sunshine & roses, the road to heath has been a hard one (more emotional then physical). On the outside I look great my hair is coming back (darker then before but that is for a another post), I am able to work full 40 hours (still working on regaining my Focus), I am starting to work out (not like before but close). The part that I am having a hard time with making up for lost time and sometimes when I am in an area with large groups I often feel sad & withdrawn. Case in point this weekend we were at a large Easter Egg Hunt & I known I should be happy and thankful to be alive, but I guess I just sometimes have to fake it (or put on a "happy face" to cover my sadness). I guess this is what they call survivor guilt, I know with time I will get past this & I am hoping that going to CancerCon will help with these feelings.
Well best get going for now , until next time remember You are NEVER alone.
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