Maybe it would had been quicker to drive

Getting to CancerCon was way more stress then it was worth but I am happy to report I am here. So it started with our plane being 2 hours late (yippy). Once we were up it was "mostly" smooth sailing until 10:32 (CST) When we started hitting a few bumps but it was not as bad as it could have been, It just takes some time to get used to that feeling again. Around that point in the flight were I really wish I could have fallen asleep but I known that it would had been a bad idea as we are so close to landing. With it being so late I was so happy that a dear family friend will be picking me up so that I don't have to take the van (means I can check in quicker). There were a few kids on the flight but really they are all doing really good, hearing giggles behind me reminds me how much I miss my little man. I know this trip is a good thing it doesn't stop me from missing him & Chris like crazy. Last time I want on a trip like this Next year I think this will be a family trip, true I will miss out on some stuff  but we could still hang out from dinner on & that would only be for 2 nights.

So some random Thoughts from my flight
* Oh the "slow down feeling" is so odd.
* touch screen spells trouble when the ride gets bumpy.
* Bag only weighed 26 lbs ... it really seemed like it was closer to 40 lbs


The drive to the hotel was easy (but LONG) check was almost the same about of time. I guess they were having problems with their keys & 3 people were helping a group of men who all wanted to pay cash I guess (not really sure what was going on) there was 1 guy in front of me who said he was waiting for 30 mins to check in (I kinda believe him as it was really THAT slow). So once I finally made my way to the counter I was greeted by a very nice lady that also said Happy Birthday to me (as my birthday is next week) .

Finding the room was a little of a hike but that's ok(it seems to always happen to me). Once I opened the door to my room I found a sweet Birthday card, bottle of wine, orange, truffles, & some AMAZING strawberries dipped in chocolate. I guess they gave all this to me because I had signed up for the loyalty program when I booked the room.  I want to say I fell in to the bed & passed out but that would be so far from the truth, my mind was racing so much that I ended up only getting a few hours of sleep.

And that is the end of Day 0

TSA agents talking to each other super quietly well pointing to your ID is not always bad..... right?

I will get to the TSA story later, I am still trying to stop my heart from racing :)

Hello world I have not seen in years ... what world is this? you ask,  Well it's the wonders that is the Airport. I have not been though those magical doors in years. I don't know what it is about this place but I just LOVE it (that is odd right).  All the people watching as they rush from place to place, the person who think the food court is a great place for a conference call & those who are like me that could sit & watch people wondering what they are thinking all day.

So I am siting in the food court eating Arby's just watching plans come in & out wondering what/who is aboard knowing all to well that soon I will be on & up in the sky and this part of my travels will be done.

A few cool things that have already happened to me today are:
*When checking in the gate agent said she had checked someone in yesterday who was going to CancerCon also & how she thought it was a super cool event.

So now to the TSA story
(ok this was was a little scary at first, like What did I do, but done worry it's all good)  So I hand my ID & ticket to the TSA security guy and we talk a little bit & he then bumps the guy next to him & shows him my ID (the whole time talking very softly & I am starting to FREAK OUT, seemed like it want on FOREVER ) He then hands my ID & ticket back to me (I am sure he could see my starting to sweat) & say "Our supervisor has the same name as you, you are the 3rd person we have met" (ok that is code for "you can breath now") I replied with "wow really" (I couldn't think straight, if I could I would had come up with something better) So I guess there are 3 of me out there & 1 is a TSA supervisor.... odd.

Ok I am done rambling for now until I hit the Air See you later world

7 days until Cancer nerds Unite

I have to thank a co-worker for that title :)

So I have started this blog post a few days ago but kept getting busy with life so this was put aside, BUT now is the time I will finish this post well on my lunch.

Well as I talked about on my last post I had my 9 month check up test on last Friday & had the follow up apartment on Tuesday. So the results are in & I am in the CLEAR. Is it odd to say that part of me still "feels" sick? or like I still wonder/fear the little evil thing inside of me is still inside of me? I know they say Cancer is like a Monkey on your back, no matter how much the drs & test say you are good you still worry about it will come back at any time.

BUT in OTHER NEWS ....7 days until Cancer nerds Unite at CancerCon 2015 :) I really can't wait to be around others "like me", Other whom have a super power of fighting Cancer, others whom know the pain of being given drugs that hurt a little bit but help a whole lot, other whom know how short life can be, others whom have WON ( and those still fighting), others whom will not wonder what the scare on your chest it for or why your hair is so odd.

Well my lunch is coming end so I guess that means this post will come to a end, I can't say for sure if I will post before I leave but trust me this blog will be getting more activity soon.

Until then God Bless you & whatever comes your way.

9 months post chemo

WOW I can't believe it's been 9 months since I had been sitting in the chemo chair getting pumped with drugs. Since then I am been busy living, I want back to work full time, still as busy as can be at church, and in 2 weeks I will be traveling to Denver for Cancer Con (put on by StupidCancer.org).

I would be lying if I said it's all been sunshine & roses, the road to heath has been a hard one (more emotional then physical). On the outside I look great my hair is coming back (darker then before but that is for a another post), I am able to work full 40 hours (still working on regaining my Focus), I am starting to work out (not like before but close). The part that I am having a hard time with making up for lost time and sometimes when I am in an area with large groups I often feel sad & withdrawn. Case in point this weekend we were at a large Easter Egg Hunt & I known I should be happy and thankful to be alive, but I guess I just sometimes have to fake it (or put on a "happy face" to cover my sadness). I guess this is what they call survivor guilt, I know with time I will get past this & I am hoping that going to CancerCon will help with these feelings.

Well best get going for now , until next time remember You are NEVER alone.